People who get too high really gross me out. If you wanna get high and have a spiritual experience and be happy while you are way too high… then fuck dude go ahead!!! But if you are gonna freak out and can’t let go of your inhibitions and limitations then why are you doing it?! People seem to get high so they forget their problems, whether those are big or little probs, and some peeps don’t even recognize they even have probs… but it’s on a subconscious level for them ya know.

Three things to remember when you are about to do any drug:

-scene

-setting

-circumstances in your life

Think about these before you try to get so high next time. Look inside yourself. Really look deep. And if these 3 aren’t aligned the way you would like for them to be… then expect to have a crazy trip! I just like my friends to be happy without the use of drugs ya know. I don’t like to see them in a crazy altered state that makes them uneasy or unhappy ya know?

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What is it that makes me think as soon as I get to a fest I need to do drugs?! WHY?! You are suppose to be brought out by the location, music, creativity, community, consciousness, workshops, etc; right? This next one I will be sober the whole time I swear it! I’m bringing one box of wine and that’s it! I just don’t like the way I feel sometimes when I’m super high like that. Symbiosis is going to have so many awesome workshops and yoga and dance classes and people to meet and things to see that I just have to be on top of my game! I sure as hell am going to miss my man, though.

I did end up digging crystals for the first time on the ranch where the Grateful Dead used to come to relax and get Jerry off heroin…. we call them Jerry Garcia crystals!

I was on a lake paddling around with one other person and we were trying to just get to shore or get somewhere else but the current kept us in the same spot. There was another person in the lake with us but we never got close enough to her. I suggested that we go over and get help from her, but the man I was with said she was a vampire. She had crazy glowing eyes. I came up with a theory that she lived there and turned her own daughter into a vampire, which was my friend Michelle B, and she would actually get out of the water and kill/turn people for her mom. Later I was in my room talking about my theory to a couple people and one of the guys asked me on a date, I said yes, casually. Then we were headed to school on a train that went past a few lakes and a bunch of people got on from that spot that seemed to be vampires. We just scooted down a whole lot then I woke.

I was in the car with a woman to pick up her husband from work. They had a really nice car, it adjusted every time someone new got in. And the wife drove from the back seat until he got in the front. They had two kids, a girl that was 15 and a boy that was around the same age. They were both very small and I only talked to the girl for a minute. The dad was dressed in a suit, but I think he was a coach for the school because we picked all three of them up at the same time. He was talking to someone before we got there, asking this guy why he had a scar on his face. The boy said it was because the man’s son asked him to put some contraption on his eye. He said he’d never do it again ha.

I dreamed we went to a Salvation Army and I found a bunch of clothes to buy, duh hehe. I found a couple of glass mugs and a wooden mixing spoon. I also looked through all of the books to find a only one I wanted… it was a world atlas from 1910. I feel like I’ve been in this thrift store before in my dreams but this time there was a full kitchen on display…that the team members actually used as a breakroom as well. I also found an old Thomas the Train set… like a cardboard train pop out that you could set on tracks. I found a game called ‘Elephant’ that looked exactly like Monopoly but in the shape of an elephant!

I’m leaving work and I need a ride. I get one with my co-worker, Monica, who is going to take me to her house first. Before leaving, I see my other co-worker, Anna, and she is looking for Minnesota so I can’t go with her, she’s in such a hurry. Monica and I leave, but there is a man driving and someone else next to me in the back seat. There is a road we take and can only go north or south on it. We go north and turn on this one random cutty road. We start to get totally lost but then we find this house that’s kind of hidden in the mountain. We look up and there’s a party on the balcony which is up very high. There are mostly younger teenage girls and a very thin woman and man. The woman is pretty drunk and keeps standing on the ledge. The man grabs her and pulls her down a couple different times then they all go inside. Someone sees us watching them and so we leave. We head south on the road again. Now were going towards Gilroy but also going down mountains. We must be on highway 1 because you can’t really go right but you can go left.

I was with my mom and my sister, Leah. We went into something like a Walmart. I have been in this place before in my dreams. It’s kind of run down and deserted. The weather outside is very gloomy and dark. We literally run into the store and are looking for extra clothes and shoes. I get the attention of an older woman who is a friend of ours and she gets her car running right outside of the door. We wait for my mom and sister. As we all get into the car my sister is packing a bowl for us all. She is listening to some music on her headphones. Someone is chasing us but I’m not sure who.

we went into a house to get something and I had to pee. went into the bathroom and flushed the toilet bc there was already pee in it. then sat down to pee but couldn’t because I heard feet scrambling. Then I ran out to catch up with friends and saw the owner of the house who didn’t see me. he was looking at something very intensely. I ran up the mountain across the pool and into the woods. Couldn’t find friends and so went back down the other way. There we saw rangers and they were trying to catch us. But we kept running. Then they started shooting fire at us. The woods were catching on fire. They finally caught us all and said they were going to charge us starting a fire in the mountains. By this time I was a man who had a 3 year old daughter and was trying to bargain with them so I could have less of a jail sentence but the ranger kept saying that if we had just turned ourselves in instead of running, the sentence wouldn’t have been as long.